I like to journal and occasionally go back and see where I’ve been and where I’ve come from. Maybe this is for someone today.
Dark times are difficult times. They are difficult because it is in the darkness that we just can’t seem to “see”. I can’t see the “what to do” or the “how this will end.” I can’t seem to see through the mess to know what is real and what is just in my imagination.
I can’t see clearly.
It’s too dark.
There is a small ray of light. It might be a verse God gives me or a person He sends my way to speak hope into a situation.
But, even in that, it’s easy to return to the darkness, the loss, the mistrust.
I never know what’s around the corner when I’m left in the dark.
I feel alone.
I know in both my mind and my heart that I’m actually never alone.
People may fail me.
Perhaps, they too are in a darkened arena.
God never fails me.
He never abandons me.
He never forsakes me.
He believes the best in me and sees His Son in me because what seems like forever years ago…I received Him into my life as my personal Lord and Savior.
He took me from darkness that day and gave me light.
He showed me the steps to take and led me completely out of the darkness.
Like the Israelites, I too, will wander.
It’s so easy to judge this group of people who wandered in the desert for 40 years on what should have been a few days journey.
Today, I find myself feeling like I’ve been wandering for a very long time to absolutely nowhere.
You think you’ve been through something and fixed it.
You move on and cast aside your worries and pain.
Then you feel as though somehow you are back at the beginning and the wandering begins all over again.
But, as the Israelites wandered, God was visibly with them.
He was a cloud to follow by day and a pillar of fire to follow at night.
He did not abandon.
He did not cast aside or give up.
He did punish when needed and consequences came, but God never gave up on His plan for His people.
He loved and loves His people.
Whether you find yourself in a cloudy (foggy) place today
Or a patch of darkness…
Know that God is there with you.
He will never forsake.
He will never abandon.
He is here in our midst.
Allow Him to be your Pillar of Light.